Week: Sunday, November 22nd, 2004 - Saturday, November 27th, 2004

Barcelona
by Jewel

Barcelona where the winds all blew
And the churches don't have windows but the graveyards do
Me and my shadow are wrestling again
Look out stranger, there's a dark cloud moving in
But if you could hear the voice in my heart it would tell you
I'm afraid I am alone
Won't somebody please hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
Fly, let me fly, let me fly
Super paranoid, I'm blending, I'm blurring, I'm bleeding into the scenery
Loving someone else is always so much easier
But I hold myself hostage in the mirror
But If you could hear the voice in my heart it would tell you
I'm tired of feeling this way
God, won't you please hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
Let me fly, let me fly
I won't be held down, I won't be held back
I will lead with my faith
The red light had been following me
But don't worry mother
It's no longer my gravity hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me fly, let me fly, let me fly
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

It was a long week. Too much stuff... too many deaths... *sigh* This song totally made me feel better when I heard it. Sometimes Jewel is good at that.
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

Week: Sunday, November 14th, 2004 - Saturday, November 21st, 2004

Lullabye (Goodnight, My Angel)
by Billy Joel

Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark
And deep inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will be
Someday your child may cry
And if you sing this lullabye
Then in your heart
There will always be a part of me

Someday we'll all be gone
But lullabyes go on and on...
They never die
That's how you
And I
Will be
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

I love this song. It makes me happy that I did post this song this week, especially with all the bad news I have heard. Everyone is ill, or dying or having hard times. This song makes me remember that no matter what happens, there will always be someone watching over me. And there is always someone watching over you as well.
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

Week: Sunday, November 7th, 2004 - Saturday, November 13th, 2004

Breaking the Habit
by Linkin Park

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safer in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Cultured my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again

I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
Cuz I'm the one that falls
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

Every time I hear this song I feel I have to shout the lyrics to it. Sometimes feeling confused is way too stressful for me. This song totally helps me relax and remind myself that I don't have to let the pattern continue. Linkin Park has definitely hit the nail on the head with this song.
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

Week: Sunday, October 31st, 2004 - Saturday, November 6th, 2004

Never Is A Promise
by Fiona Apple

You'll never see the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

But as the scenery grows I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still to proud to mention, to you

You'll say you understand
But you don't understand
You'll say you'll never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

You'll never touch these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown to you

You'll say "don't fear your dreams"
It's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

You'll never live this life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight

But as the scenery grows I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention, to you

You'll say you understand
You'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in
You don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]

Ok, so I decided to visit the mid 90's again and choose a Fiona Apple song. I actually was watching I <3 the 90's on VH1 and they were making fun of Fiona's acceptance speech at the 1994 MTV video awards. She was saying how life was a joke and a bunch of crap. And we need to be more serious about ourselves and not be so stuck on music or looks. I laugh because although that may be true, she was living exactly the opposite of what she was telling the audience watching that night. It would be like Bill Gates coming out to the public and telling us we should be free of electronics and live more simply. And then see him walk into his 40billion dollar home complete with sensors that pull up the window covering, automatically change the heat to your comfort level, and even change the music or TV to your liking. And that doesn't even cover the actual computer aspect of his home. Anyways, I liked her music and still do, even if she is a bit of an extremist.
Scream out: Jaden Kale | I Wanna Scream!-[ 0 Screams.]